wat am i tinking?? oh man...

i think my attempt to write in proper english and sentences have failed terribly in my past posts, but i 'll try to correct it... slowly tat is..hahah.. well, i'm having sudden outburst of weird tots in my head recently while studying. i dunnoe if it's a sign of mi going crazy or wat..haha... i can be in the midst of reading abt heritage places for changing landscapes( sucky mod btw), and i can suddenly think of painting glass.... have the sudden urge to find my glass n start paintin on them.. then i can just tink of whether i shd buy an oven or a breadmaker.. wat the?? i'm supposed to be concentrating on studying cuz i'm so dead... got a pathetic c+ for the project and there i am , not concentrating on studying.. i'm so going to fail tat mod if i screw up finals.. by then, i'll be dead, big time dead!!! as mentioned b4, my expected/desired cap has flown away, i'm just trying my veri best here to string it back..hopin tat i wun be too far off from it though.. i'm getting too econs here too..haha... desired(savings), expected (inflation) ..haha... too much keynesian and classical theories burns my brain up. wat's more with the lousy a&b , i'm really confused now.. find tat i dun even learn anything from macro tut cuz my tutor is forever asking us to read a&b.. i seriously doubt if he noes his stuff...
been wanting to go out to study.. but in the end i'm just stuck at home cuz there's a ton of things to do n cuz i'll be w/o company if i go out to study..so might as well just sit at home rite.. problem is distraction.. everything is a distraction, the tv, my bed, the comp,msn.. everything..argh... i need to refrain myself...
alot of things have been going thru my mind.. and they are all jumbled up.. i need a brain filter cum sorter... to sort my tots out...
i want to go shopping.. dun have to buy anything but i just want to go out!!! tat will be in more than two wks time ...haha.. so many things to i want to do NOW!!! but i cant.. want to relax, go hols, meet up wif frens even just for coffee or sthg... tots of working during hols have been flooding my mind too... tat is if i can find lobang eh.. see.. my mind is just cluttered wif so much stuff... i dunnoe where to start from...
i'm sick of cooking lunch everyday.. is there any convenient way of filling my stomach w/o much trouble --> no cooking n washing....
time for mi to go do my chores... haiz, have to cook n clean for my sis... i'm a maid leh.. haha... n hit the books soon... i need a clear mind , coherent tot and a clear yet impressive line of arguement ... how do i go abt getting these?? i wonder.....