it's been some time eh...

been some times since i last blogged... haha..farnie ar.. after exams had finished, i dun blog as much as i used to during exam period... aniwae.. have been out almost the whole of last wk.. spending alot too... now broke liao... tink i better start looking for job soon.. bought quite a few stuff... mainly clothes lar.. hehe... just learnt a crayfish pasta recipe.. tink i'll try it out one of these days... was looking thru chocolate n zucchini... n saw these lovely fruit pastes... n they even have the shop in spore.. just opened one... herdiard... some french shop eh.. n 25 fruit pastes cost a whooping 35 euros... tat's like almost 3 dollar for one fruit paste lar... tat's ridiculous... how can they cost so much?? so feel like being able to try it.. but i noe the fruit paste and mi mei yu yuan fen..haha... aniwae.. just went to jeremy's grp today wif julia.. feels a tiny weeny weird.. cuz kind of gotten used to jillyn n zhengkang's grp liao.. now change again...haiz... but i'm in a diff position this time.. no longer just a member.. but there to help out... realli hope i can get to noe the kids more n be able to be part of them... abit hard ar.. since i'm not the type who speak alot.. so kinda hard eh..the gers are realli nice... quite open to mi... hopefully i can talk more to the guys next wk... dunnoe y.. when julia was talking to mi over lunch to pray abt it.. whether to stay or go woodlands... it stirred in my heart again.. i tot i had made up my mind abt this issue.. but apparently.. i'm still pondering over my decision...kind of missed the times i cld sit in zheng kang cell.. n just participate like everyone else... no higher expectation of mi or anything.. all of us being equal... but now i'm in a different situation... can feel the tensed up n abit stressed up feeling inside of mi today... is it time for mi to move out of my comfort zone? but i barely got there ... probably less than 2 mths ?? feel tat i learn quite a bit from zheng kang n jillyn cell..enjoy the sharing too..haiz... dillema dillema... i'm torn ... help...i wish i could make up my mind.. and stand strong in it.. and also feel comfortable in it ...